holiday + friends + death + tournament = 5% left of me

thought the hols would be not that stressful but i guess it is
havent even started studying properly at all, and there's like what?! 3weeks left? omg. What the Heck


one good thing is that Kenneth's back, but schedule tight and all, as im working on the business and procrastinating on my studies
these few weeks got to talk to like everyone im close with again.like AT LAST..
sometimes, it's just depressing that everyone is so far away. and that's why im so EMO
got this text yesterday - "wow, they're scattered around the world. It must be lonely without them"
sighzz


two days ago, after my family got back from a getaway to plan and all, we received news that our pastor's wife passed away.
normally, normally, when someone pass away everyone cries, no? this time, everyones glad. cuz she had been suffering and just surviving on sips of water for 18days prior to her death. so yeahh..wake service's tonight.going. but not going for funeral..ahhh


Tournament's tomorrow. am so NOT ready to go for it. am just tired and unfit. chances are i wont even survive the early round.
just came back from sparring session with my partner for doubles and his bro with his friends.
realized i suck. maybe it's exhaustion or i dont know what.but yeahh.gotta so improve it by tmr
gotta cut my hair too
-FML- word of the day from badminton
and i think i know why, my BLOODY eye, not exaggerating much, but yeah.it just sucks


5% left..Paramore's Brand New Eyes blasting in the background
"oh God, help me through this hard week, Amen"

Go and check Chris Brown's Crawl.it's nice

So we'll crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no wind